I'm sorry for your lost. Death is really something we never ever get use to. We just eventually learn how to cope and move on forward from it. However we do have a promise in the near future that says we won't have to deal with death forever and that we will get a chance to see again the ones we have lost in death that were close to us, and that is at Revelation 21:4 and Acts 24:15. So until that promise is fulfilled may the God of Comfort be with you during this difficult time. (2 Corinthians 3,4)